Chapter 357

I am almost done with my one year commitment to 275 words a day in this format. Mostly I have learned that I don’t have nearly as much great and significant words and thoughts as I believed in the past. A kick-starter idea makes it much easier to get started writing 275 words each day, so I am constantly looking for those. And trying to focus and think and write while my dad is droning in the background is damn near impossible. And that has been my Coronavirus reality for the last four months, soon to be five months and counting. There is no end in sight . . . of the droning . . . not the 275 words a day.

The only thing that has kept me going is the firm belief that leaders write. So my level of struggle with writing is also my level of struggle with leading. They are good barometers of each other. When I am leading well, writing is much easier. When I am struggling to lead, writing is a nightmare. Leading is the actions I take in the course of the day as I live my life. Writing is the outpouring of what I learned, experienced or failed at. When I struggle to write, it is usually after I struggled to lead in the ways that I am capable of and the ways that I encourage others to do so. Yes I still struggle in certain situations and at certain times to lead well. 

But I have a mental conversation with myself and get back on that horse. No there is no need to argue with me here, not getting back on the horse is no option. Life happens and we have to power through the failures, the droning and the maddening TV playing in the background.