# Chapter 262

There are few things more upside-down than not staying asleep. But boom at 3:30 am and a quick trip to the bathroom ends the night. My mind takes these decade long trips to all the countries we have lived in and worked in and some of the most obscure things you could imagine and I ain’t never gonna get back to sleep after that mental tsunami starts to rock and roll in my thoughts. I sure wish I could corral this mental energy and direct it and most of all have it when I want and need it, instead of it taking over my sleep hours!!

Why can’t I have this experience in the afternoon when my creativity is low? Why can’t I just go to the bathroom and relieve myself in the afternoon and boom, mental overclocked hyper-speed engaged! Now that would change everything!

No, I am doomed to have an especially slow mental afternoon after losing my best three hours of sleep last night. If I get much of anything done today it will likely be a miracle and high quality high impact work would take a double miracle. Maybe I will have a triple shot expresso since I am fresh out of miracles.