Chapter 43

Too much information about too many things and none of them are interesting to me even when I am awake. But within the first hour I get up, very very few things interest me, food being about the only thing. It takes me a while to get going in the mornings. I really don’t want to talk to anyone or have any conversations until after 10 even though I get up at 6. It just takes me a while to get myself going. Your mileage may differ. I know my dad does. If his eyes are open his mouth is moving. I just can’t.

There is a correlation here between investment and returns here. The more you have invested the more you can engage, because you are expecting a return. You are invested in a return. I am not invested in returns for early morning stuff period. Early mornings should be peaceful and quiet and restful and gentle. Not jarring and intense and chatty, and especially not requiring a response or thought or thinking from me. Get used to disappointment if you are going down that route. I will not be coming along willingly.

After I have been awake for an hour and have some coffee in me, then we can do all those things you want to do, talk about all those things you want to talk about, focus on all those inane things you want to focus on. I can’t multitask on a good hour or day, much less in the first hour of the day. Leave me the first hour to come into the world gently and fully, not with blaring questions and inquiries and required responses. It brutalizes my soul.