# Chapter 50

Chaos is what happens when you have a new context and you are suddenly trying to fit three people in a two person kitchen, or four pieces of bacon in the microwave instead of two pieces, four eggs instead of two, three chairs around the small table rather than two, the timing of everything is thrown off and nothing works like it did before. If everyone is chilled, then you can survive these things with small adjustments. If everyone is normal and easily upset, then these matters can throw a huge wrench into everyone’s equilibrium.

Chaos happens to everyone at some point, and ours flows up and down all the time. Trying to hold to a structure or design for your life in the middle of chaos is very challenging. Hanging on to your well designed habits in the middle of chaos is really really iffy. In fact, hahahaha, this blog has taken two days instead of one! And this is a small thing, but it requires focus and thinking and that seems impossible when the chaos is swirling and hurling and generally making a nuisance of itself and distracting you to hell and back. And at the rate I am going, it may actually take three days to finish this because of chaos - unorganized energy with no structure or defined purpose. This of course is my random definition, which seems to fit the moment.

I think we will let this blog finally end, even though there is undoubtably much more that could and probably should be written about this subject, because the chaos is rolling in waves here and I can’t overcome them any longer.