# Chapter 332

Awake too late and up too early. This is the normal pattern for my most difficult days. And it makes them worse. The cause is apparent, the solution not so much. If I only could take naps, that might really be the only and best solution. Of course we could be done with difficult challenging days, but that would mean . . . nah we will just keep on chugging our way through difficult challenging days. Ok on a different but same note, I hate the voices of every single early morning TV personality, they grate on my nerves far more than fingernails on a blackboard. No amount of caffeine or sugar can seem to counter their effect on my mind and soul. And this daily writing process is taking twice as long as it should and normally does. More complaints forthcoming.

Unless I can turn this around. Turn around my resentment first and foremost. Turn around my tiredness and find the energy to accomplish all that needs attention today. Ease through all the nearly conflicting pieces that have to come together in some form in such a way that it brings completion to each part without sacrificing the priority list. And perspective, understanding that while things are scheduled to be really busy today and you just want to go back to bed, nothing is life critical today. Yes you have spent lots of time and effort on arranging these matters, but you didn’t die before arranging them, and you won’t if they fall through via overbooking or some other flaw in the day. Turn it around.