.Chapter 17

I have entered into the twilight zone. The part of the country I drove into yesterday morning, is so vastly different than the part of the country I had just come from, its like driving into the twilight zone, the other side, the something or other that is so different, you would swear that you have changed countries.  It is giving me whiplash. Mentally that is of course. Let’s say it a different way, Pennsylvania is the new country, rural Georgia is the old country. Moving between the two is stretching my mental space to the breaking point.

Its like I live multiple lives, and while that kinda made sense when I’m flipping between actual countries overseas and just Georgia on this side of the ocean, I am astonished at how powerful that feeling was yesterday and this morning flipping between two states. And it continues to be unclear where I feel most comfortable, but I am heavily leaning toward Georgia, which most everyone in my family is going to find unfortunate, because none of them live here but the aging parent. But I have been here with him for the most of the last 5 months and that may or may not have something to do with it.

The whole point here is that I always have a measure of internal discombobulating and disturbance going on mentally. I need to change the pace of change itself in an ideal world. Or up my mental fortresses much higher than they currently are functioning at. I can’t even block out the noise from the TV this morning. '