Allocations

# Chapter 122

There is time, but how you and I allocate it is making us feel like there is never enough. There are so many conflicting messages about how to allocate that time, and no matter which choice you make, there may be some angst about the choice you made. The only way to resolve this is as I have said many times in the past, have Uber clarity about what and how you are choosing to live, which priority’s will gain your attention and get completed while all other things get a no.

I feel that I have gone the other direction, that I have said yes to new things without the real margin to do so, essentially dealing a no to my main core of work, because there are never going to magically be more hours in the day or week. And now I don’t know how to reconcile this largely unreversable decision to take on more and it will and is, catching up with me. I really need some outside input so that I can have clarity about whether this is a one year crunch where this extra will go back into the box it is supposed to be in, or if it will continue to expand and have a life of its own, in order to give the results that I anticipated from the beginning.

Even the going to office piece, which really isn’t necessary to do the extra work, that can all be done remotely, is to show that I am all in, but to show who what? And frankly all the pieces of my life are getting partial attention now. No deep work is possible in the loud noisy environment at the office, so going there each day is super negative. Deep work? I haven’t done that for months.